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its a lng time...

2005-10-02T03:10:00.000+08:00

hello.
its a long time since i write something in my blog. i also already forgot my password at blogger.com. actually im on holiday bcos i want to take my new MyKad. the picture at my ic is such a horible picture and i hope i can replace it with another picture. Lately im notice something different about my life. im already searching house for rent, im already thinking about my future, my brother n sister are already married, i dont know where all my friends are, my cousin that have same age with me already became a woman, and etc....now i realise that time never wait for me and now im a man. i really feel weird about me now bcos most of typical malay guy afer studies then get a job then married then get a kid and then live happily ever after. i dont thing i can live such a stereotype life like that, it will be a boring life without a memories. i dont know what is my future but i hope my life isnt boring like that.

this month is my last month i will working as a trainee without pay. sometime i like working at my office but some time i hate it when ever they push me to work on something. but so far my project are working on schedule and i looking foward to finish it. i think im gain more experience when im in industrial training especially in communication. this month i will start fasting n i hope i will fast for a month n no more ponteng.

something that will happen.

2005-07-11T17:20:00.000+08:00

recently i always heard about london bombing at newspaper. the terrorism is something that we didnt want to happen at malaysia. but as you know that terrorism is always about anger thus anger never know place. terrorism happen without knowing who u r, where r u, and anything. i always remind myself that terrorism is not the thing we must have in my mind or our mind. malaysia have a large population of muslim and we also have a large community of christian but terrorism never happen in our country.we all must remembered that terrorism is not a solution it just a thing that will destroy ourself. im very sad about the tragedy bcos as a muslim i dont want any killing happen even they r not my relative. as a muslim im ashame of them that pretend to be a group of jihad that called themself qaeda. if u want to jihad try to make ur country more successful, more rich but then u just lead ur country n ur people to poor n damn. i pray for a peace to all that always want peace.

politician, political, politic......

2005-07-06T16:20:00.000+08:00

i'm 21 years old now n i can choose my favourite political party but actually i didnt want to choose. since im in hight school i didnt like politic. u know sometimes i think all things that related to politics is suck. i have a political family background...my grandfather have political carrier with some known political figure...actually all malaysian know who is the man. my father also have political cerrier althought he is government worker but he stop before he success bcos he said that he want to focus on our family. one day, i have ask my father's friend 'A'(not atrue name) why my father stop his politics carrier n 'A' said it is bcos someone that have more power didnt like my father. so here we r just ordinary but happy famiy. i wonder how my family will be if my father didnt stop being a politician. i can imagine that maybe i didnt hate politics that time. i hate politic bcos they using people as a source for their achievement. i know some politician r a good people but it only 40% in their heart n other 60% is just to boost their carrier without thinking other people. n then after that all the thing that will crush is just an innocent people. i know that politician is our leader but can u think now, r there any leader that never been criticise? i also know that no human is perfect but please....try to understand what r the people needs.

short hair chick

2005-07-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

actually i didnt have any idea to blog but when i saw ryoko hirosue at the internet, its remind me how passion for me with short hair girl. i dont know why but if i have two choise between short hair girl n long hair girl, i prefer the short hair girl. if two of them were long hair then i never choose them. some of u maybe think that long hair girl were very polite girl n very beautiful or more girlish but its just a myth. if a girl is beautiful when she cut her hair short than when she have a long hair than the girl deserve to be called beautiful girl but if not then she just regular girl. im also like short hair girl bcos it look more wild than the long hair girl besides short hair alway easy to wash than long hair.but u know i didnt like to cut my hair. i always like my hair to grown long. before i attend industrial training my hair is from the head until pass my chin. imagin how long my hair is. but after that i had to cut my hair short bcos i have to work...u know la government policy. but after this, i have planning to make my hair more longer than girl just for the last tim. just before my age didnt allowed me have a long hair. so i can tell my children how long my hair was. so my friends will be jealous bcos of my long hair n lastly bcos i taste what is feel like to have a long hair.

i just saw the wind blown away.....

2005-07-04T17:00:00.000+08:00

hai,
i didnt blog at friday bcos my stomach was hurt n i dont know why. i want to tell u something....that today i stay at home alone.it will be 3 days straight. my sis n my bro will go outstation n i had to take care their house. at my office, most of my friends also going outstation. i dont know why in this week, everybody seems just leave me n it always bcos of outstation reason. maybe it is bcos of some conspiracy theory or something. but im slowly enjoy being alone at home n office. u know u can do anything u want n no one will ever watching u or scold u. im already used to being alone when i was at school n when i was still studi at uni but being alone when u work is different. u can feel something different will about happen but today seems nothing happen. i also have realise some of the bloggers always write something about sex. im enjoy it but i didnt like to write about it bcos for me u better do it than imagin it. but for bloggers that enjoy writing it....please get a new idea to write about sex. im just getting boring read the same ol stories. ok la........chioau.

My Dream or My Dreamweaver

2005-07-01T08:00:00.000+08:00

today im working with office's website n suddenly all my officemate that always slack off their job have been busy all day. i dont know why but i thing its all about payday. u know all human in this world need money to buy something important like food or something else. but u know what is monay cant buy is dream.no one can achieve something without dream. my dream is to became a rich man n have a big company. i dont know if i can achieve it but it didnt hurt anyone at least.some of u maybe think im daydreaming but i dont care as long as im happy. working is one of many important aspect that can built a boy to a man n from an ordinary man to an extraordinary man. some of u maybe have a dream. if u have have a dream dont shy to make it reality n u can add it in my comment post.

lonely in a bright room.

2005-06-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

my task in this office is keep updating the office website and add some new funtion in that website. u cannot call me a webmaster bcos they have one but the webmaster will end her contract next month. i wonder will i make some new changes in their website since next month i will in charge of their website. im still in the industrial training but the work that they me give is like im a permanent worker. my status is not clear n they still talking to their superior about my payment. i think that i will not get any allowance or payment in this industrial training bcos they have their own policy but i also thought that as a human that work hard for their benefit i should have some composetion. u know maybe RM300 a month or anything. i dont care as long as my work have a value to them. some u maybe think that student that perform industrial training didnt deserve allowance from the company bcos they have schollarship but they r wrong. bcos i use money from the schollarship to pay house rent n bills. the allowance from the company will use for eating or buy book. yes some of them maybe used it to buying hp or ps2 or something but they r just a few of us. student should fight for themself n other people should have a respect to them.

never been kiss.

2005-06-29T08:20:00.000+08:00

im still in office now when my other friends r going home. u know waiting someone make me remembered something that i have forgot for a long time. since when im in kindergarden i always be linking with a girl. i dont know why but this phenomenon actually stop when i was 18 years old. its happen when im in matrix college n i stop to searching the special one. altought i never had one but when i was in high school im still search for it. im never been date n when i saw a beautiful girl i also always saw their ugliest side. i dont know but my friend had said to me that no one is perfect. i realise that but im still doing the same thing whenever i saw a girl. when im in uni i keep pushing myself to keep blind whenever im with a girl but my eyes still wide open searching the ugliest side for that girl. maybe its a fate that i never found a right girl(or in my case woman) or maybe its a curse to me bcos i never saw the kindnest of a girl n keep telling to myself that the girl is bad. i hope in the future i will accept that nobody is perfect n will always love the good and the bad side of someone.

brain and proccessor

2005-06-27T19:50:00.000+08:00

hai,
currently im working on not so small project but it give me trouble than other project that i have done. first time when my bos give me this project, i thought that this project is very kacang la. after that, it started to give me more n more problem n i start to regret to receive this project. i still working on this project but seems it look didnt working. so it try to ask my friends but they all tak bole diharap langsung. why they create a thing that is hard to create n if they want to make our life easier so try to create a thing that useful. today im still in mood of holiday, u know im didnt used to work 8 hours. but life must goes on n i must try harder to get use of it n in the future, maybe i must work more than 8 hours...who knows. so i still always wait for 5 pm bcos i want to go home n sleep. working is tired maaa. now i know what is my parent feel when they r working. to kids.....dont waste ur parents money bcos its hard to get.

hot and tired

2005-06-26T16:15:00.000+08:00

hi.
im now at my hometown but the trip to my hometown is very very tired. i balik kampung with my sister's car and she also drive it.my sister's car is kancil with no pick-up n ofcos auto la. but 1 thing i didnt like about her car is her aircond is just broke. u know i spent 3 hours in her car without aircond n with hot environment....i dont know how many gelens of water that ive lost. n also my energy were waste in her car trying to sit still whenever she hit a hole. i confess that kancil is perfect car for a woman but with no aircond? n with extreme driving skill....i guest my sister not suitable with kancil. i think when i go back to my parent house i prefer using bus than my sister's car.she also didnt believe me driving her car. i have a license so what u expect, im driving the car n just hit another car. why i have a license if i didnt know how to drive a car. sight this will happen when u have a car n ur other sister or brother didnt have.
ok la...now im at home n my parent start questioning me about my work. do u know im just arrive at their house n i still tired.but u must know parents always like that even their children r in mid twenties.ok la i must release my tension now....

wooo...balik kampung....wooo

2005-06-26T04:05:00.000+08:00

hello.
after work i will balik kampung.u know my hometown Segamat.my hometown is more peaceful than kl but i think i always like live in town.i dont know why. maybe after my age is more tha 30 i will live in kampong n hate to go to town. i didnt like to go to my parent house bcos i feel my parent always watch in the back. i like more freedom n do my own things. but my parent always call me ask me to spent my holiday at their house.isnt they realise im a man now. i didnt hate my parent but they always mengongkong u know what i mean....but as usuall i always follow what they said..i dont want to break their heart but i hope they will understand if not now maybe some other times. i hope in the future i will gain my total freedom n give my children a freedom to but when they all grown up. i always think that when we became a man we can think what is good for us n can take care anyone if no there is no point to marriage...
ok la i want to go home

the first and the last

2005-06-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

hai,
when i writing this blog im still at work but u know this is a first time i work on saturday n its also the last saturday for civil servant to work. i dont care about when we work as long as i can get money from it. its a nature that we will get money from working. im thankgod if i have a work bcos there many outside there that r looking for job.working on saturday is bit boring bcos we r in the mood of holiday.we r also will be tired at monday bcos not good enought rest.i wonder if they allow civil servant working on saturday then government should pay double of their salary.its a common sense if u r working on holiday right?but a longer working time seems not good for the civil serven.in one day human only can focus on something only in 7 hours. after that they only searching something fun.so u know its a waste to working in long hour.ok la...my bos calling me now. i had to go now.

oh chariot....

2005-06-25T08:00:00.000+08:00

hei
today im still sleepy at my office n project havent been start. my bos always give me job n always in last minutes. n now my office's servers r been attacking by some unknown scum. i dont know la y people alway give trouble to another people. is it a nature of human that alway want give trouble to their own species. i dont like trouble n i always prevent to have any trouble but how far run from the trouble its always near me.some of us always said that trouble can make us matured but for me trouble can crushing me. but as u know that trouble always searching for us. but the conclution is that i got is trouble is us n we r the trouble

lost in the computer....!

2005-06-23T07:30:00.000+08:00

hei,
i already move to a new desk.but the pc at my new desk give me headache.the past owner of this pc didnt care about tis pc.im very sad on behalf of this pc. do u know that this pc have so many application that i didnt know what its for.it such a waste of hd. the previous owner of this pc just install random application. so i had remove them one by one but its just half of them that remove.bcos i have a work to do n i just leave the task to remove the program tomorrow. but one problem came after another one. when i surf the internet then many pop- up just showing up. i think this pc had many problem than i thought. so tomorrow i will start a big operation to wipe any bad a** in my computer.

operation name : operation bad a**
date : 23/06/2005
objective : wipe out the bad a** in my pc as many as i can

supremacy....

2005-06-21T19:50:00.000+08:00

Cradle of Filth
Vempire Or Dark Faerytales In Phallustein (1996)
Nocturnal Supremacy

Weak midnight promises of loveWere wept upon Her graveAnd shunned by stars aboveIn mortal life lurks my dismayAn Angel stole my heartand Death took Her awayShe sleeps beyond the grace of godA dreaming beautyIf wishes could only fray that bondThe dead would sing for me...Twelfth moon arose with ghostly voiceA poet's serenadeHer name a whisper 'pon my lipsAnd lo, Rorasa came'Fear me not my grieving KingFunereal in breathThe secrets of the dark I knowAnd thus, we shall cheat Death'My promises wrought though despondence that nightHave delivered me gifts from the graveRorasa enshadowed and eternal lifeNever a Devil so vainThe Angel is fallen, for I thought her lostAnd no heaven would silence the painTeach me these secrets, the sensual frostDesire for warm blood againPrincess lay down thy florid cheekIn drunken splendourTonight rare regal fate has castThe wolves among the sheepDark nature clasp my soulAround Her throat mine arms enfoldTo sleep, perchance to dreamAnd then...To dusk and flesh ascendThe Sun descends, magenta spirits fill the skiesand wreak erotic maladies where sex and Death abideFrom writhing tides where gothick siren weave their song to shoreThrough the ashes of the battlefields where ravens and angels warAs phantoms we have fled the basilisk of dayTo rise as phoenix taloned, nightly taking preyWe rule like the red and risen moon upon the seaThe stars of judgement silent, for we share joyousEternityDamnationSalvationStigmata plagueThe wine of Bacchus flowsListen to the thunder rageDeceivers dragged before their crossI am He that vanquished DeathAnd bore the sting of lossWhat vulgar christ will unprise my grasp?His temple, ruined, burnsAnd sweet Rorasa laughsI am enamoured and imparadisedTo catch the fires dancing profanely in her eyes'I will crush them allIf this holds thy delight'Rather dead forever than to lose herNymph-lascivious Aphrodite

hei...
i have many friends n im also not a racist or or some sort of that. some of them think that they r too smart than others n they just call other people stupid. they didnt think what other people think about them. they b*tching about other people n they still think they r smarter than anyone else. but what i know that the smarter u r the harder u thinking. u cannot escape what other people think about u.when u thinking they r stupid, then other people will think that u r more stupid than them.so think first before u express what u think......

think about it....

weirdos..??!!!

2005-06-17T19:31:00.000+08:00

hei,
i dont know la how i can understand my boss. he a weird kind of man that just give u half word. u know what i said...i meant that he will just give half instruction n then just go assuming we know what he want we to do. i still confuse about the work that he give to us. even his permanent workers still didnt understand about him. i m still in the office right know but my boss is ...i dont know how to say because i dont know where he is. well u know an officer must have a leadership qualities. if he goes to the some sort of reality game show like apperantice then he will be the first candidate to be fired. ok...i didnt mad with my bos but i hope i will have even better bos that know how to manage people.

i wonder how i will go throught in my industrial training for 5 mont in this office......

work...work....work

2005-06-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

hei,
i got to go to work but i prefer to studi than work. no more wake up inthe morning everyday n u know working is very tired laa. when u work you must earn ur money urself but if ur still studi ur father will give ur money. some people like to work but work is a pburden that we cant take off. i dont know laa why i didnt like to work maybe because i used to got class or ponteng class. when i working i still remeber when i ponteng class. im so missed those days because i can just lay in the bed n didnt go to class without any punishment or anything..so im eager to finish my industrial training n go back to ukm to have a class.when i have a class i always can usha aweks n firting with them n also i can hang out with my friends until late at night(morning).when u r working u must sleep early n dunt have a life.so sad laa.but maybe after 2 or 3 months later i will enjoy my work.
ok la....

no work laaaa

2005-06-15T07:20:00.000+08:00

hello,
today i still didnt get any work. my work in this office is still surf the internet. when i look out at my office just a few employees working n some of them just go to minum even times is just 10am. how easy to be government employee...just relax n enjoy the life. i think when my age is 30 or above maybe i will try working for government but before that i think i should seek experience at swasta company.n so i heard from my bos that i will get allowance. i also heard minimum allowance that they want to give is RM500 n maks RM800. i already thinking how to spend it maybe upgrading the computer or buy shirts or buy dvd. im not a shopaholic but money can make people crazy. now i know how girls will react when they got money.ok la money doesnt matter but maybe tomorrow i will get my new project. what kind project will my superviser give me? its still in question but it will answer tomorrow. i hope that my supervisor didnt give me big project just small2 one dah la........

my first day at work

2005-06-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

hai,
this is my first day at so i had to make it short. i dont know la how to explain it but when i want to report duty to my supervisor i saw 4 student from ukm. 2 of them r very familiar with me. unfortunately my supervisor is on holiday so they said to us just lepak at the office n do what u want. after said 1 of the workers send us to their bos (in this case my bos to). then the bos just give us advice how to work at government department. then we fill some document after that we just lepak n surf internet. i dont know la what to do since there is no work maybe for the first day but its so boring. it also make me very sleepy n i dont know where to go. after work i go home but feel very tired. i sleep at 10.30pm n it is my first time to sleep before 12.00.

one day trip

2005-06-11T17:30:00.000+08:00

Artist: Marilyn Manson
Album: Portrait Of American Family
Title: Prelude (The Family Trip)

(this is some shit off the Willie Wonka movie, in some parts you can't really hear what he says but this is what it sounds like)

There's no earthly way of knowing which direction we are going
There's no knowing where we're rowing or which way the river's flowing
Is it raining? Is it snowing? Is a hurricane a blowing?

Not a spec of light is showing so the danger must be growing
Are the fires of Hell a glowing? Is the grizzly reaper mowing?
YES!!!
The danger must be growing
for the rowers keep on rowing
and they're certainly not showing
any signs that they are slowing!!!
Stop the boat

hello,
that lyric had nothing to do with me except the trip. today is a tired day la. u know why? its because i had to go to jb. my father ask me to help my uncle during his son's majlis kawin. i had to wake at 7am then me n my family bertolak to jb at 8am. at 11am i arrive at my uncle house n i start working. usually they ask me angkat lauk or washing plate. since today is a hot day my shirt i wet with my peluh. the guest arrive until 1pm and then we go to semayang jumaat. at 3pm the bride arrive n we had to start work again. its been very tiring day but im happy to help my uncle besides that i also can usha awek cun wooo.at 6pm i had to go back to segamat before that we stop by at my another uncle house. at the majlis kawin, they have karaoke session. my father n all their brothers take part in that karaoke sessions. but as they call orang lama they all sing lagu lama. their voice also out of tune but as long as they happy the guest just buat dunno. the guest also enjoy it but always laught with my uncle voice. i dont stay at my uncle's house at jb because tomorrow i got to go to kl. i start working lor. what a nervous lor. i meant new environment new people n new work. ok la i had to pack my bag.

n another thing....
to arin : SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU

Iron man

2005-06-10T16:50:00.000+08:00

hai.
today i had to do the most think i hate to do. u know what it is gosok seluar (iron laa). i had to iron 3 seluar panjang n thank god my mother had iron 2 kemeja. i remembered that its been 5 years i didnt iron my clothes. it is because i wear t-shirt n jeans to go to class. n now i had to wear kemeja n seluar slack....what a pain. when i was in matrix kolej i never iron my clothes but my clothes still look smooth. i had a trick to make ur cloth look smooth without ironing it. but that bcos i wash my clothes using hands n not washing machine n its more bit hard. ironing need a bit of skill that u must learn throught experience. i start ironing my cloth since im in form 1 n i learn it myself without any tutoring. i just watch my mom ironing cloth n then i just copy it. at first my cloth didnt look quiet smooth but as time goes on my cloth look even better.

tips for ur clothes to look smooth without ironing :

1) never wash ur cloth using washing machine try to wash it using hand
2) dont perah ur cloth after wash it just kibas2
3) jemur ur cloth using hangar.

u will satisfy with result.....
try it at home......

it wasnt a surprise......

2005-06-09T17:00:00.000+08:00

hei,
what a hot topic at the net now. i dont want to comment about it bcos i have many chinese firiends n i also have many malays friends. what i think now that government must think what wrong about PSD scholarship. this problem do not go to the chinese but malays also, a few year ago i have 2 friends that have good result in spm. A get 5a1 and B get 10a1. but only A get the PSD scholarship and B just local uni. i also tired about this bullshit n want to end it as soon as it can...

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

2005-06-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

I have never taken any exercise except sleeping and resting.
Mark Twain (1835 - 1910)

hello..
today i will change my sleep habit. i will try to sleep as early as i can and i will try to wake at 8.00am. usually i will sleep at 4am and i will wake up at 2pm. this a bad habit that develope since i was 1st year at ukm. now after i had to go to industrial training i had to wake as early as 6am. bcos i stay at my bro's house at puchong and i have to go to work at putrajaya. i think i will regret it bcos not to stay at my friends house at bangi but if i stay there i will not have transportation. if i stay at my bro's house at least i can borrow his car. talk about sleeping..most of the youngster in malaysia sleep after 12am. when i was at kolej most of my friend sleep after 2am n we find it normal for us. we usually hang out at mapley every weekend at 2am until 3am and then after that we will sleep. i dont know what about other uni but for my kolej at ukm we find it a normal for boys sleep late or never sl
eep. its like showed us that we were adult n we can control ourself. its a symbol of control.
life can goes hard on u....i also found out that my cat is already died. i heard that my father said that it because racun babi(khinzir). n guest what i got to dig a 1/4m hole to burried the cat.

hmm....what a short day.

2005-06-07T17:30:00.000+08:00

hoi!!!
today i made my new myCard. if anyone of u did not have mycard please made it now or u will be fine RM100 next year.thank u. whoa what a relief after made mycard. thankgod i make it at segamat(a smalltown if anybody didnt know what is segamat) because there is no jam and i didnt have to wait even 1 minute. but what is i cocern is when my mycard (dont confuse it) will be done. when i ask about it, the clerk said it takes 3 month but my grandmother's mycard did not done in time n its 4 month already. i dont know la how they work but i hope that they will make my mycard(once again dont confuse it) cantik2. n some more i just realise that my small town had already have a big town efect u know what it is traffic jam.i hate traffic jam but its not too long i think it just 10 minutes. after the mycard job done i went to shopping and guest what ive got.....a short with RM18 and i just bought it without question...what a fool i am. but that short is really nice. at the hot monday its remind me the days at the ukm maybe that time at ukm i will be at class with air-con or maybe i still sleep at room n just skipping whatever class. syah start asking me if i will stay at their rent house or just staying wit my bro. they asking me using sms but i dont have any credit to send them any sms. so i just keep quiet and waiting they phone me. n i now that will like tunggu kucing bertanduk.and some of my friends stupidly like pejal just send a blank sms to me. eh hello what is ur point la sms is stand for short messaging i dont know what n it means that when u send sms u must have a message n not blank. i dont why im so piss of today. sms like that just waste my time.
hishh...

what...!!!are you nuts..???!!!!

2005-06-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

Artist: Alanis Morissette
Album: Unknown
Title: (change Is) Never A Waste Of Time

I know there's a reason you're forcing a smile
You hide what you're feeling and you have for a while
I can tell that you're falling
And you feel that you can't go on
But a new day is calling
And you'll see that the feeling is gone

Chorus:
You know you're not the only one
Who has a lot to overcome
And when the time has come then you move on
'cause you've been crying for too long

Sometimes life is so unkind
But change is never a waste of time

I know how you're feeling, i've been there before
The hurting is something much to strong to ignore
Don't be waiting for someone
Who can take all your fear away
When there's no one to listen
That is when you should not be afraid

Repeat chorus

But change is never a waste... it's never a waste of time

heiii!!!!
my hair is not as long as it used to be....its mean i cut my hair. what a stupid idea n i dont know why i cut my hair. maybe i just want to follow stupid fuckins unwritten rules or maybe i to stupid to think. when i look at the mirror my hair looks ugly. even my brother laught at me because of my hair(stupid brothers). today i go shopping at downtown(segamat not kl) and before i shopping i cut my hair first. the barber just cut my hair without any pattern and then he just amused about how long of my hair and suddenly after he done cut my hair and i look at the mirror i was surprise how ugly my hair r. suck that barber guy!!!. and now my life is changing ....no more long hair and there is only ugly hair. but as a man i have to faced the world as long as i can adapt with my ugly hair. and to my friends dont laught when u see my new hairstyle.ok la .....

changing is killing

smokey........

2005-06-04T17:20:00.000+08:00

warning!!!this thing can kill

hallooo
im still at segamat maa..some say this town is pekan cowboy but i dont as long as i can have durian at the back of my house. some people didnt like durian but some people appreciate it and it same with ciggarate. my grandmother had been babling me 24 hours because my smoking habit. i dont know la y she didnt like me to smoke because usually i smoke outside the house and not inside the house maaa. it doesnt even bother her.....i dont know how i start smoking ciggarate. i only remember when i was 13 years old my friend just gime a ciggarate and i just smoke it till now. smoking is just like sex, once u have it and then u will want it again. smoking give u a plesure that even girls didnt have. but sometime i also want to quit smoking but i always fail and sometimes there r always setan yg cube menghasut. u know my brother smoking, my cousin smoking, even my father is smoking. i dont laa when will i quit smoking but i can imagine it someday n sometimes i will live in a healthy life without smoking. and for now let me enjoy smoking before im quit. after im friday prayer.....pian had told me that they will make a reunion dinner at this month but i think i sibuk laa. and also when they planning it they didnt even told me and discuss about it together. so maybe i will be terlepas my 1st reunion dinner maa. so sad la but when i think again maybe i can forced them to postpone it to another date....maybe it can be done. tomorrow will be the last day of my very looooong hair and it also will be the first day of my shoooort hair because i had to cut my hair. actually i dont want to cut my hair but since i had intern at government department and they required dicipline and so on. i will mis my hair.....ok la... chaaauuwwwww
may the force within ......

the sun will shine and the moon will dawn......

2005-06-03T17:15:00.000+08:00

hello,
Im so sorry because not update my blog. As u know that Im a student so I always busy with my project or my studies or exam and what ever laa. So I forgot to update this blog laaa. My project end with disaster. Not 1 but 2 projects that I think will fail and my mental is very2 down right now. I dont know laa why the lecturer always gives us hard question instead they answered easy question. This sem 3 exam also give me a hard time. I think I will kantoi for this exam laa. Ok quick news from myself is that I got company for my industrial training at Putrajaya. Actually its not company but its government organization. 2 of my friends lan and azhari also had the same place with me. I dont know laa how I will adapt with new place maybe it will take a month or so. But what I want is money. I dont care about experience or anything but if u dont have money how u will go throught of ur life. My friend already had a house to rent at Bangi and they also ask me to stay with them but the problem is my mother ask me to stay with my brother at puchong. I dont know what to do than follow what she said before something terible happen. I really dont care about it but right now I really nervous about new environment that i will found at putrajaya and also about the result. I didnt see the result of sem 2 because I want my mother saw first. The result for sem 3 will came out soon. so I still nervous like shit and I cannot enjoy my holiday now. Ok la i want get some rest now..............

we'll to be blame

2005-04-20T06:46:00.000+08:00

ouuusssse......
many things just happens last week. my roommate just transfer to another room and now i have a new roommate. his name is mali and even he is 21 year old but his physicall appearance are like 12 years old boy. actually i was planning to stay alone at the room. but mali stay at my room just for few day and that didnt bother me. shit i just forgot to renew my driving license and to renew maybe very leceh laaaa. yesterday P saw me smoking at faculty and when i saw her face maybe she just didnt belive i was smoking. i just act as usuall and buat dunno. but today P walk to me and ask about cdrw that i give her last week. fortunately i didnt bring it. damn how can in this time and in this place i can forget about the cdrw. maybe hemi still mad at me because she wait for me at cafe yesterday. i told her i can give her PHP installer at cafe and i end it being totally forgot about it. she also mised called about 6 time thanks to the "ichigo 100%" i didnt hear anything. after watching "queen of lunch time" im planning to watch "long vacation" i heard that it have a good review. since the 1st day of third sem i didnt read any book except comic laaa. but i start thinking about the final exam that will a month from now and i start shaking thinking about it. well life as a me is didnt as easy as you think but maybe a little bit boring. im a bit down this week maybe because of the lack of sleep. tomorrow me and my group will have a presentation about the assignment that pn norleyza give to us. the problem is that we didnt start anything except downloading. maybe this night will gonna be a long night.
and finally we'll to be blame...........
hait............

No Man's Heart

2005-04-19T05:39:00.000+08:00

woooiiii!!!!
sorry i did't upload any post last week.it is because i very busy with class and something. last week i spent all the time just wondering how i want to survive in this semester without any money suply. but you my parent will take care about the money and i just forget about. some of my member comment about the english that i wrote well....then i dont care if my english is bad as long as anyone can understand it. i think that write a blog in english can improve my english a little bit. ok la last week i didn' even study and i just watch dvd and read manga. but you know i got the japanese drama "the queen of lunch time" and i even get to borrow "band of brother" from my friend. well my mind still on the manga that i read recently called "ichigo 100%". yhe manga is funny and very moving. well the is kind of jiwang but i dont care as long as it cant forget about L and P. my mood is bit down lately and i dont want to write the blog to long.ok la.

to azhari : jangan jeles aku speaking english......

so you want to be a pirate......

2005-04-12T20:16:00.000+08:00

allohaaa.....
there is been a tired day since i sleep 4 am yesterday. i went to hazeri room to copy his video clip but the truth he didn't have any new video clip and it make my trip to his room very dissapointing. then asrul with his stomach that always hungry and i had to go supper with at 2 in the morning. today i have a class at 8 am and feel strong energy coming to my body because today i have same class with L. nothing much happen between me and L it is because she didn't know me and she also have a boyfriend. my minyak motor semakin kurang and i malas balik hostel so i stay to azhari room because his room is near tu faculty. his room have a connection with the internet but my room didn't have connection. so i was very bengang and have to go to his room to download anything. poh peng give to me cdrw that i have suruh her to burn our picture during pembentangan project but she said that my cdrw had rosak. i didn't know that because usually that cdrw can burn even dah calar- balar. tonight i had to go to azhari room once again to borrow shafik's "band of brother" dvd and also give azhari, "naruto" cd that he want to borrow to me. since tomorrow class will begin at 2 pm i dont mind staying late at night. ok la the technician wants to close the lab and i had to go home now........
alohhhhhhhhaaaaaaa......

man....Im bored

2005-04-11T13:02:00.000+08:00

alllooo.....
this is a boring weekend. i didn't do any activities in the weekend except sleeping.....sleeping is an activity that will gain your strength after a rought day only in my case that that i didn't have enought sleep. but i spent all saturday night and sunday night playing futsal with my friends. its a fun activities and it also cheap. but at saturday night we only playing 1 hour with 20 people waiting for their turn to play. i only play just three times and it didn't satisfied me. but all of us just have to pay 2 ringgit each. sunday night is fun with just 12 people we just playing in 1 hour and non-stop. im so tired and even wake up at 3 pm. lately i always watching japanese jiwang drama i dont know why......kuikuikui....maybe its because of hormone......kuikuikui......but some of the drama is "love college", starring ryoko hirosue. i like ryoko hirosue since i watching her drama series called "shotgun marriage". she so cute and i always searching a girl like her. but in "love college" drama ryoko playing a role as energetic girl with a talent in photografi. i dont want to tell you anymore about that drama so you must watch it out. today im still waiting for my cds from pejal. i think its a long time to wait for him to burn my cd. i dont know what he do at his room maybe masturbate......i dont know la. maybe someday i will go at his room and find out what he was so busy about. actually i just finish my boring and sleepy lecture of cik ross. i dont know maybe its because monday is the first of the week. now im trying to search pretty face manga website to download. damnt i didn't found one. ok la im very very very busy right now......
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I see dead people......

2005-04-09T14:01:00.000+08:00

L n' P

2005-04-06T14:00:00.000+08:00

huhuhu......
im back. im very busy this day. i went to stayed at hostel, keris mas for third sem in saturday. suddenly i saw my roommate syah. he also went back at the same day.i dont what on earth why he want back to hostel so early. i never understand this guy althought he is my roommate. first day at hostel is very boring n tired. i dont know what to do except watching epl especially chelsea. im not a big fan of chelsea but i like how they play. but i dont know why maurinho had to be fined n suspended, he had a right to give an opinion or some suara. maybe the uefa officials didnt like their staff to be criticize. that enought about football, at sunday i went to lowyat to buy some cdr. do you know i buy cdr in 40 ringgit for 100 pieces. that is also a tired day because i just walk n walk at kay-el in 5 hours n never rest. monday is my first's third sem day, i had to wake as early as 8.00 am n found out that class had been cancel. but then my dissapointment disapeared when i saw L. one of the most cutest chick in my faculty. she had a boyfriend but like the teen's said yang kawin pun bole bercerai ini kan pulak kekasih. i just to wait for her leaving her boyfriend then i can cucuk jarum la. i alway look at L whenever i found her. she actually in different course than me but i alway saw her at faculty. at my second class at 11.00 am i found that the lecturer of that class cik ross is cun but her class is so boring. but nevermind that because i can meet with P, one of the cutetest girl at my course. i found out that P doesn't speak fluently in malay n english but i don't care because P is alway nice to me. althought she is chinese but she have a malay looking n two big eyes. today i had wake early to go to more boring class with pn. zawiyah that always nagging a negatif attitud of the technology in 3 hours, how paintful. but i found out that i have a same class with L n P. i dont know why i so lucky this day. ok i had download my favourite anime naruto. if i keep nagging maybe some of this word that you understand will come out..........tut.....tut......huhuhuhuhu.........

member lama....

2005-04-02T16:45:00.000+08:00

ari ni ari jumaat la.....
biase nye aku bangun pukul 3 ptg tapi ari ni aku kene bangun pukul 12 tgh pulak. malas rasenye lagi pun semalam aku tido kul 4 pagi. rase malas je nak gi semayang jumaat tapi bapak aku dah kejutkan aku so no excuse. lepas semayang tadi aku bole pulak terjumpa member2 lame. first sekali aku jumpe hazrin, aku tengok die tak banyak beza semenjak dari dulu. kalau aku tak silap kitorang dah 6 tahun kitaorang tak jumpe. tapi yang paling aku terkejut pasal hazrin ni die bole masuk palapes kat utm. badan die tu dah la kecik kurus pulak tu kalau nak dibandingkan dengan aku, aku lagi besar 2 kali ganda drpd die.aku tak tau la macam mane die bole tahan ngan latihan palapes. lepas tu mcm biase aku jumpe azrul ngan sorang lagi yang member aku yang aku boleh lupe name die tapi die ni tinggi mcm galah. azrul ni pulak pun mcm dulu la tapi die ni tak de perubahan langsung asyik mcm tu je. paling kurang pun cube la gi keluar dari kampung tu cari perubahan. kalau tak belajar pun cubela cari keje kan bagus. tapi lepas tu aku ternampak member lama aku yang memang dah lame aku tak jumpe. wan ab ni pulak tetibe je muncul aku memang terkejut betul. sembang punye sembang die bagi tau aku die ade nampak aku n family kat lowyat bulan lepas. lepas tu bile aku tanye nape die tak tegor aku time tu lepas tu die jawab die tgh lyn foriegn customer time tu so susah la nak panggil. wan ab ni sekarang tgh studi kat gmi kat key-ell so aku bole la lepak ngan die lepas ni. lepas tu aku tgk bapak aku dah tunggu kat kereta aku terus chow. today i still doing same activities as usuall but tomorow is my last day at kampung so i will enjoy my evening and relax. i also always watching 8tv and my favourite show is quicki and especially marion....and i always didn't mis watching marion in action. ok as always i want enjoy my last evening in my hometown ok.bai...bai...bai.

first time

2005-04-01T17:10:00.000+08:00

ello.
this is my first time i post a blog. today is an aprilfool and thank god that i still in holiday i mean semeter break. tak de lagi bebudak yg ngade2 buat aprilfool kat aku. tapi aku kene buat semester 3 la pulak. sem 3 aku start 4/4 tapi aku takde duit nak bayar yuran. kalau nak harapkan ptptn diorang hanya bagi duit untik sem 1 atau 2 sahaja. so aku kene la cari duit sendiri.tapi aku tak tau la mcm mana nak cari duit. aku ingat kan nak cari keje time sem 3 tu tapi bile aku tgk jadual kelas aku tiap2 hari pack kecuali sabtu n ahad. terpaksalah mintak duit dari my bos........ok hari ni aku still makan n tido tanpa buat ape2. lepas aku tengok late @ 8 tadi baru aku sedar hari ni aprilfool. tadi aku bangun kul 3 lps tu makan tengah hari lepas tu aku tgk tv sampai kul 12 mlm lps tu aku surf internet. nampaknye itu la keje aku tiap2 hari mase holiday ni tapi sampai hari sabtu ni jela.sebab aku kene gi kl sebab kan aku ade sem 3. nak dijadikan citer pulak handset aku bole abis bateri lps tu aku lupe bawak chager la pulak. aku lupak nak bawak charger aku mase kat hostel hari tu (dah kelam kabut katakan). lagi satu parent aku due-dua tak pakai nokia. abis tu terpakse la aku tutup handset sambil mengharapkan keajaiban akan terjadi. sambil aku tgh tulis blog ni aku tengah gi kat friendster saje je cari awek2 yang cun. takkan tak tau hobi aku ni meng-usyar awek. but one day when i was surfing internet i had read a girl's blog that is full of ape org kate makian. the girl is malay girl and from singapore. i dont know why her heart is so kotor but im a malay to and i so shame that a malay girl talking so rude that when u read her blog you will know that she is a b***h. what is so shock about her she only 14. ok it is my smoking time. maybe i will write this blog in the ftsm lab because i have sem3.......man......i hate that sem 3.bai bai bai bai